The Truth of the Matter

I’ve been in a bit of a slump lately. I could probably blame it on the pregnancy hormones that are racing through my body, but the truth of the matter is, I’m just not believing God. I’m not believing Him to help me in the mundane, everyday tasks that are wearing me down. Especially in the challenging job of teaching a 3 year old to have a bowel movement in the toilet. Yes, I said bowel movement and toilet. Our 3 year old’s “matter” just can’t seem to make it into the potty and consistently lands in his underwear. He has the other aspect of potty training down, so yes, I am grateful and am not a complete failure of a parent. But what I am feeling absolutely frustrated and “slumpy” in is that I am having to clean up at least 2 -4 dirty underwear “accidents” a day. I have been angry, depressed, and absolutely overwhelmed with this perpetual stress. Needless to say, I’ve been in a slump.

Amongst all this “slumpiness” I’ve been questioning God and telling Him “I can’t do this anymore!” I’ve also wondered “why does he have to struggle with this bowel discomfort and awkwardness?” This morning, I got up early enough to have a little time before kids got up and sensed Isaiah 45 being where I needed to turn. This is what I found…

Woe to you who strive with your Maker,
earthen vessels with the potter!
Does the clay say to the one who fashions it, ‘What are you making?’
or ‘Your work has no handles’?
Woe to anyone who says to a father, ‘What are you begetting?’
or to a woman, ‘With what are you in labour?’
Thus says the Lord,
the Holy One of Israel, and its Maker:
Will you question me about my children,
or command me concerning the work of my hands?
I made the earth,
and created humankind upon it;
it was my hands that stretched out the heavens,
and I commanded all their host.

-Isaiah 45:9-12

All of this brings to the forefront that God knows what He’s doing and why. I need to trust Him and allow God to shape me (I’m sure this is a part of shaping/molding me into a vessel that can glorify God even more). Even amongst the muck and the mire (literally!) I must turn to the Lord who created all humankind (including my 3 year old son) and knows all of their functions and dysfunctions. He is the Master, Creator, LORD God Almighty… and He is also the Sustainer, Savior, and Comforter. I desperately long for His Sovereignty and Comfort throughout the day. This is my prayer…

In you, O Lord, I seek refuge; do not let me ever be put to shame; in your righteousness deliver me.
Incline your ear to me; rescue me speedily. Be a rock of refuge for me, a strong fortress to save me.
You are indeed my rock and my fortress; for your name’s sake lead me and guide me,
take me out of the net that is hidden for me, for you are my refuge.
Into your hand I commit my spirit; you have redeemed me, O Lord, faithful God.
-Psalm 31:1-5

3 Responses to The Truth of the Matter

  • Cris says:

    I have been studying Isaiah for months and it has a huge blessing to me. Glad you found comfort in those verses.

  • greta says:

    Thank you for being so open and real. What an encouragement it is, because we are ALL in times like these….. The scriptures were perfect, just like our God is- all the time. I love you. I am praying for you right now!

  • carolyn says:

    Thank you ladies for your encouragement and sweet words… Today has been wonderful and yesterday was good… We are all enjoying God’s creation spending time outdoors and working on our yard! Thank you again for your prayers and love!